My Dear,

I just don't give a damn.

I don't know if those are the exact words, but if they are, I don't want to plagiarize, sooo... copyright Gone with the Wind etc.


ANYWHO.

The point is, I've been stressing out and really it's all in my head. So I'm saying to myself, "Hey. I don't give a pile of poo as to where I hang my hat! Because 1) I have no hats and 2) it's not like I'm an orphan or anything.


I saw like, a minute of The Eye last night. And if you weren't aware (if you even care), I hate scary movies. So I had a nightmare.
I mean, it was a perfectly fine dream until my sister (in the dream) pointed out a burning building, so I ran inside to see if anyone was still there and I saw this lady with her kid and I tried to talk to them but they vanished into smoke (there was even creepy music!) and a lady came out of the door and she was like, "Go warn the others. Tell them there is a fire." I thought she was alive until her face started to turn greenish and crispy, then I realized not so much. By this time, everyone was still completely oblivious and all the people there were living in the building connected so I was like, "CALL 911! FIRE! CALL AN AMBULANCE! FIRE, YOU IDIOTS!" but my voice wasn't loud enough to I had to run around telling everyone. Then everyone got out and was like, "Dude, why didn't you tell us sooner?" and they were complaining so I was like, "HEY!" and basically laid it out on them about how stupid they are and how awesome I was. Then these two guys were like, "Hey. We like that you got angry. We might make you an honorary black person! (they were black, obviously). Then everyone started walking up these stairs, and suddenly there were these lights/ lamps and I was like, "Where's my sister?!" because they were "spirit lights" and I told her so and she had to help me walk. I was hoping they were like, friendly light because I stopped other people from dying but after the creepy music started and I started to see angry scary things I just covered my eyes and let her lead me.

Some stuff happened after that, but I don't really remember.

Moving on.

We're going to Pennsic.
I had lunch at Panera with Sieanna and Aaren (not at the same time) and dinner at Boston Market with Chella, Andrew, Brit, Amy & Josh.
I saw Wall E with the family.

...

That's about it.

Is it a condition?

I have serious empathy problems. Not as bad as the person in a book I read where if she saw someone get punched she'd feel it and fall back, but almost.

So, I'm a totally geek and caught up on the Naruto chapters. I know that nobody reads this so I'm going to vent my emotions here.




WHY, WHY, WHY?!

I mean, really. Almost all at once, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM. Half of Akatsuki dies, then Itachi dies and we find out he's actually a good guy (kinda) and Sasuke's like, "RAWR Must destry leaf!" and Jiraiya dies and everyone's like, "Why the hell would you write code on a toad's back AS YOU'RE DYING?" and there's general ANGST everywhere.



Okay, I'm done.

So, new and exciting things.

Worked up at the school cafeteria for campmeeting, saw people had fun redhead ex still has weird sway.

Kristy's (assistant dean) wedding- I was a bridesmaid. Eventful, fun, very tiring.

Kinda moved out. Halfway. Sort of.

We have a new kitten. His name is... Dan. I want to call him Ninja Dan, but noone else will accept it. Oh well.

Mark has a girlfriend that I found out about when I saw her at his graduation party. She looks like Tina Rudy... AND He might not come to Pennsic. That leaves me in the center of a hormonal hurricane unprotected. I'm pretty scared.

Ummmmmmm... I've been hanging out with people. Yay! Saw KungFu Panda with Chel; went to Boston Market w/ Josh&Amy, Chel, Brit, and Andrew; walked to Panera with Aaren. Tomorrow/Today (it's late, isn't it?) I'm going to see WALL-E.
Pretty geeked about it, not going to lie.

Oh!
Chel thinks I'm the bees knees now cuz we were on our way back from Kung Fu Panda and that pocketful of sunshine song came on and she was like, "Why don't I have a pocketful of sunshine?" and I said, "Because you'd burn yourself. And probably blind people." Apprently it was funnier because I was totally serious and said it in the tone of voice that was dripping with that, "Duh, Chelsea. It's totally common sense," kinda thing.
I'm glad I brightened someone's day. (get it? sunshine, brightened...? oh, whatever)

Which reminds me (for some reason)...

I've got that song by Katy Perry stuck in my head. "I kissed a girl and I liked it..."

It's late.

I should probably go to be now. . .

I'm so weird...

I hate this whole coming of age thing. I mean, I've been "coming of age" since...
Since whenever.

It kind of sucks being weird.

But at the same time, it's cool to look back and see myself grow.

Like, "Hey, one month ago I couldn't stand that girl. I realize now that just because she has a different life doesn't mean I have to hate her."

Having money happens to people to work hard... and a bunch of other people, but working hard helps. Not to say that people who are poor don't work hard... In fact, they're kind of working harder...

Oh, screw it. I'm getting bitter again.

THE POINT IS
That I'm trying to get over my petty flaws and move on.
Trying to get over Mark, and Greed, and Jealousy, ee-tea-sea (that would be etc).

Besides, I have gifts too.
Some gifts are just more profitable...



So, did anyone else know that Cedar Point has a Gay Day?
Weird.
I kinda thought gay people just, like, collected there or something.
Or maybe our trip just happened to coincide with a purely coincidental rush of flamers...


ALSO...
I still have no life.

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR THE SUMMER

School's been out for quite some time now, actually. I've just been chilling at Amy's for the past few days. Mostly for the Harvest Moon 64, but I also enjoy not being in my house. Oh, and Amy's pretty awesome too.

ANYWHO.

Graduation weekend for boring, tedious, and super long. They even sang "Graduation" by Vitamin C. How cheesy is that? But I digress. I roomed with Kristy, and Katie Roddy & Jess were across the hall. We basically had a super time whenever we weren't working or practicing. There was this class get together night thing, and we watched The Goonies up at the ampitheatre and made smores. I discovered I have a special talent for making perfectly toasted marshmallows (after one practice run). We also discovered that Mrs Castillo is even more awesome than we previously thought possible.

I'm going to miss 08...

Ok, maybe not. I'm going to miss a few of the people that graduated in 08.


In even other news...

Mark's graduation party is this coming Sunday. I was freaking out about it at first, but Meg set my mind at ease. I didn't know what to wear, really. I know that sounds super typical girl ish, but I think I have a right since I'm super not typical girl most of the time. I mean, I don't like him, but I don't want to go looking like a bum. If I dress up too nice though, any of the girls at his school that actually like him (or his girlfriend if he has one) might feel threatened by me (since I'm so darned sexy). Add that on to the fact that I suck at dressing myself, and... Voila. Instant freak out session.
PLUS Aisha grabbed his senior picture from the invitation and teased me with it.
She never gave it back...

Angry at the Fashion World Again

I think the only real reason I try to read fashion mags anymore is for things to clip out to put in my Inspiration Book and the little perfume samples. Seriously. Gotta love [some of] those perfumes.

So, anywho.

Today was the last SA event of the year, which entails electing next year's SA people & announcing which class won the competition. We (the juniors) were worried the entire day, because the seniors were really close behind us in points and we were doing reall badly. So the results came back, and the winner for the day (not year) were the seniors (we were third). So I was like, oh, we're not going to win if they were first. But then Mr B was calling out the end of year results, and he was like, "Third place, Ssssssss... SENIORS!" Which totally shocked everyone cuz we thought it was going to be 4) freshman, 3) sophomores, 2) juniors, and 1)seniors. Then we all held our breath, and when he announced that Sophomores were in second our class went CRAZY.
Seriously, we never won anything in the past two years. Like, I actually think we've been in last place for the past two years. So this was pretty awesome.

Then I tried to give Jessica a high five, but she gave me a high face. I wish I hadn't invented those, because now I have whiplash or something.

Across the Universe and Juno

Both were amazing and I want the soundtracks.
For some reason there are two extended versions of the Across the Universe ost. The only difference is two songs & availability, but one of the songs they cut was that "She's so Heavy" one and that was one of my favorites so bummer. Why couldn't they have taken out "Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds"? I mean, that comes in at the very end and it really kinda has no real story behind it. Whereas I want you/ She's so heavy does, plus it's awesome.

And Juno was hilarious. "THUNDERCATS ARE GO!"
I had already heard Kimya Dawson and a few of the other artists that were on the CD, so it was pretty awesome hearing more of their music. I'm a hundred and something on the waiting list in the library, so I'm thinking about just buying it and saving the trouble and skipped songs.

In other news, I--

went to Boston, got a letter from Mark after getting over him & kinda regressed but I'm better now, talked to Meg (finally), and a bunch of other stuff.

In any case

Just got back from Indiana Academy. Lancito, Kristy & I spent four days of our spring break visiting at Meg's house, and it was great fun. There are many funny pictures involved, but most of them are embarassing so never mind. Plus, they're on Lance's camera at the moment, so I couldn't post them either way.

I miss sunlight...