Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Saturday, May 1, 2010

What is this STRESS you speak of?

I'm not really used to being stressed, and... this first year of college has just been ONE GIANT LEARNING EXPERIENCE,
so of course it's been a GIANT BALL OF STRESS, as well.

I never really had anything to get stressed about, before this. I was smart enough to get through school without working too hard for it, although that ended up hurting me in the end, since I did zero work at all. Even the situations where it was slightly killing me because I had waited until the last moment to do EVERYTHING, that was just one or two problems at a time, as well as being a direct result of my own stupidity.

Plus, I am COMPLETELY FAIL at planning things ahead of time.
And people think that's kind of amusing sometimes, maybe endearing, but to me it's just annoying as hell. It's not that I don't try to plan things, because I do. It's just that my brain literally CANNOT THINK THAT FAR AHEAD. I'll say, "Okay, next week I'll do this. Great!" and then I'll get there and be like, "Oh crap, I forgot that I had this and this and this to do, too! T_T"
Or something like that.
It's really, really, annoying.
Especially now that all I've been trying to do is planning things.

I'm so excited for when I'll have all of this figured out, and I can go back to living in the moment.