Saturday, November 27, 2010

well, damn.

Sometimes there are these moments -
(Before I continue with that sentence, I feel the need to warn you that I have no sense of time whatsoever and when I say 'moments' I think I mean 'hours' or 'extended periods of time'. Just so you're aware and don't feel cheated when I say something like, 'the other day' and really it was half a year ago. Because I do things like that. We're going to continue now.)

- where I sink into this sort of... I don't know what to label it, but I just start to examine everything. I'll be taking a walk, and I'll start smiling and then I think, 'Why am I smiling?', and I don't stop smiling but it's just annoying to have to think of answers to everything in my life.

Today was not one of those days.
I don't think I did a single productive thing, but that's okay because
Adoration and wonder and bitter tears.

Also, break ends tomorrow.
Dean Kristy and I are not appreciating that.

Bethany left her mini-pink-plastic Christmas tree here, and now it is up and decorated. Pictures soon, maybe perhaps someday possibly perhaps.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Dandelion with Humor

In case you hadn't heard; if you manage to blow off all the little wispy bits of a dandelion puff, then your wish will come true.
So I was outside, and I had passed this patch of dandelion puffs and I had been tempted every time to just pick them all and start making wishes, but I was always nervous of one of the students seeing me and then proceeding to believe that I don't deserve my job. Anyways. School is on break now, so I decided to finally cave in to my desire.
I picked a full-looking puff, hoping that it would make my wish more likely to come true if I got it all. I prepped myself with a few deep breaths, and used as much air & force possible to blow off the seeds. You might be able to imagine my pleasant (and a little annoyed) surprise when all the bits flew off not even halfway through my monster-blow. My wish (I'm sure it's okay if I tell you) was for all my friends and family to be happy.
'What luck!' I thought to myself, ‘That was too easy! I should make another wish, to take advantage of this.'
So I picked another dandelion puff, made my wish, and blew.
Half of the seed fluffs remained when I was through.

There was a moment of disbelieving silence in my thoughts, and then I started laughing. My wish that time had been something along the lines of, 'to fall in love with someone who loves me, as opposed to someone I have no chance of ever getting'.

So today, I learned that it is best to wish prosperity for other people rather than oneself.
And also that I will be a spinster forever, which isn’t such a bad thing in the end but it’s terribly hard to explain.

Sunday, November 21, 2010


You don't even know how proud I am of myself right now.

I love the whole world

So it's really late/ early here right now, and I'm awake because I can't go to sleep and there are all these things that my subconcious wants me to do but I haven't figured what exactly those things are.
The point is.
I was on facebook
-(admit it, facebook is where you go when you're bored. Or youtube. Okay, I'm not going to lie to you, I have three tabs open right now: one of them is this page, one of them is facebook, and the other is youtube. I have nothing else to do at 2:30 in the morning, okay?)-
and it really hit me that a good portion of the messages I've been receiving have been things along the vein of, "I miss you."

And after it hit me, I just let it sink in.

People miss me.

Now if I follow that little thread with some reasoning and logic, and I can assume that there are people who care for me and love me and want me to be with them in person because they enjoy my presence.

Then my insides started to feel warm and fuzzy and I was filled with happiness,
and then I started to feel a little bittersweet because
I miss them too.

There are friends of mine all over the place, at this point. Life just developes that way, with our little ripples of friendship spreading outwards until we are almost spread too thin. Except we (I) have to realize the we (I) will never be spread too thin, because there are people who love us (me), and really that's what makes all the difference.

I don't know if this post came to a nice little end point, or if anyone will read it
(Soogie or Alia or Allen or DJ or Meg, at this point, are the only people I can think of who might even be aware of this blog, and who knows if they'll read this)
I just needed to get that out of my system and this was a good place to do that.

This basically sums me up right now-

(Huzzah for youtube and Discovery channel!)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

flipped not-alien

I'll admit it... I flipped alien-guy and re-did it so that he looks more human-ish.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Summer's Gone

Did I mention that I love Aberfeldy?
This one is on a post-it note. Rather tiny.

Monday, November 1, 2010


Alien-ish, at least.
Glowing eyes accomplished with highlighter and mini-blacklight thing.