Pooool

Tell me why I can't get any darker.

This is ridiculous.

The thing is, I went to the pool with my sisters and we were laying out for a good few hours, and nothing happened.

I feel cheated of a decent tan.

In other news...
I've been thinking about it, and I'm not exactly looking forward to Pennsic. If we had been able to go for the whole 2 weeks it would've been ok, but now I have just four days to fit in everything that I want to do. Plus, that's four days to sort out this man situation. Like, "Hey guys, how you been? Oh yeah, I'm great. Have I told you I've sworn off men? No? Well, now you know. See ya, bye!"

I probably won't say it like that...

In fact, I probably won't say it at all.

We all know I'm an attention junkie~<3


PS
spoiler for ...Naruto?
_{Homigosh I officially am in love with Tobi /slash/ Obito! He's been calling the shots the whole time, that cutie~<3 Evil and sinister, but still cute. The fandom was right after all! Since when does that happen? I mean, there was a chance that Tobi was Obito, but I didn't actually think he was. Then Kishimoto takes it another step and makes him the most awesome leader of Akatsuki of all, plotting to get all the Uchihas together like some Charmed triangle of sisterhood brotherhood? ...
Anyways, it was awesome ~ ♥}

so.

Apparently, we're going to Pennsic.

Yay.

In other news, I have a bunch of new clothes, as mutti & Al & I went thrift shopping.

Some of the skirts are a bit too short...
_{aka I can't move my legs for fear of panty shots}

And lots of shoes.
Not lots, really, compared to some girls.
Only four new pairs, which were desperately needed anyways.

Ohmi-

-gosh.

So, it's been an eventful few days. The Andrew thing Friday, and yesterday...

I almost shaved my head.

Y'see, my mom has been talking about how she'd like to dye her hair blonde. If you've met my mom, you'd know that this is a big mistake. BIG mistake. So I told her that if she ever dyed her hair blonde, I'd shave my head. I meant it.
So yesterday, what else could she do but try to dye her hair blonde?
I was ready and everything. Asking people for hats, begging money to buy a wig, looking for the buzzy thing, et cetera.
Then she comes out of the shower, and her hair isn't blonde. It isn't even orange. Her hair is still black, with the roots looking a bit auburn.
So, I still have a full head of hair, and my mom is done with the whole going blonde part of her mid-life crisis.
I think.

And today, I learned that there is still a small ray of hope if we still want to go to Pennsic. So, wonder of wonders, I was actually able to get Mickey and Allison cleaning. And I cleaned too. I know, the end really is near. What really pissed me off is that dad acted as if it was nothing, and complained about Mickey's room not being cleaned. What the hell? It's not as if HE does anything when he gets home from "work" aka drawing cartoons. I had to be a complete nag just to get him to finish Allison's paper work so she could go to school, and in the end it was Mom that did it anyways. And I had to play the bad guy again just to get him to mow. And for some reason it is my job to remind him to do anything that requires actual effort on his part.
Pardon my French, but he is being a total and complete ASS.

I need a mantra

How about, "I'm doing the right thing, I'm doing the right thing, I'm doing the right thing..."

Okay.

So, I couldn't find a ticket to the concert, and when Andrew looked for me he couldn't find one either. You think it would end there, right? But no. Andrew says that he could still take me, to see if we could get a ticket from the scalpers there. If we can't get a ticket for me from the scalpers, Andrew said he would sell his ticket, and we could go out for dinner or something.

All of which makes me feel extremely awkward.

Andrew, besides being a good friend, is also one of Amy's exes. I realize that by now some sort of loophole to the age old rule of "not dating your best friend's ex" should have appeared by now, seeing as how she dated him way back there, but still. It's the thought that counts. And just a bit ago, was I not thinking to myself, "No more guys" ?

So, I made up an excuse not to go with him to the concert, but I told him I was leaving to babysit at six which would give us at least an hour to hang out prior. So I'm not completely ditching him...

And the Sabbath is safe!

...

_{I hate being a girl.}

We're off to see the wizard...

Actually, I just came back from MVA a bit ago. Still beautiful. I saw the new dean, but I didn't actually get a chance to talk to her. I saw Nina, and talked to Lance & Bri some, but that was about it. I was supposed to find & talk to Reggie, but I couldn't find him. Bummer.

So... I couldn't find any tickets for the concert, but Andrew's going to see if they have any left at Krogers. I don't know if I want to go or if I want to stay. Cuz I want to hang out with Andrew, but not alone, and I want to go to the concert, but not on Friday. Hanging out with Andrew gets a bit awkward... Seeing as how he was just here a few minutes ago, and conversation seemed to get a little difficult every now and a few seconds.

And I really need to call Amy. Apparently, I'm not the only one who hasn't seen her very much this summer. I'm worried that it might have something to do with "Donny" or whatever his name is, that pathetic excuse of a man... I'm getting angry just thinking about it.

Oh, and apparently Meg has dumped Chelsea as a friend. Chelsea seems to think that this means that she has to lean on me as a friend even harder, even though during the school year I made it clear that I liked her less than Meg did. Meg & I had a conversation about it, and I got the feeling that I'm going to have to grin and bear it or just say it to her face. Even saying things to her face doesn't work, as we all know. From what Meg told me, Meg had straight out told Chelsea, "I don't want to have to deal with you anymore," and Chelsea's question was, "Can we still be friends?" or something along those lines.

I'm feeling hostile right about now.

I should stop typing before I break the keyboard...

Homigosh

So, along with barely sleeping...

Yesterday I went to see I now pronounce you Chuck & Larry with Sienna and Allison. It was pretty hilarious.

And then I started to read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows...
and then I didn't go to sleep...
so I started reading around 5pm July 24 and finished reading at 6am July 25.

Then I almost went to MVA, but I took a nap and was expecting my mom to wake me up but she didn't and I ended up sleeping all day.
I just finished watching Casper, the first one. I wanted to re-watch Cinderella, but I can't find it. I have a sudden longing for Disney movies...

Anywho, Deathly Hallows was AMAZ-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-ZING!!
_{(extra z's for extra amazing-ness)}

I have to gush about it, so if you haven't read it then I doubt you'll want to keep on reading this. In fact, please don't keep on reading this unless you've already read the book. It'll ruin everything, really.


MAJOR SPOILERS!!


_{I was a tad out of it when I was reading it, so random things would just pop into my mind. Like when Kreacher was cooking for them, I kept picturing Kreacher in a frilly pink apron. Ok, and I accidentally stumbled across spoilers before I read it that _____ and ______ were going to die, but I was completely and terribly unprepared when at least a third of the characters died! I mean-!!! Really. Like, "Oh, first chapter, ladida- DEAD!"
And Fred...
George though, feeling "saintly" because he was "holey"... I love him so much...♥
I have to admit though, there was a brief doubt that flashed through my mind when I read that part. It was a little late, and my mind automatically connected it as, James=stag, Severus=doe? but then I realized he was talking about Lily. I know, I'm a horrible person.
I told you Snape was a good guy! Oh, burn!}

Okay, I'm going to try to get a bit more sleep now.

Uhn?

Yes, I'm putting up sounds that aren't really words now as blog titles.
My creativity it being a bit volatile these days.

Anywho.

Andrew asked me to the Third Eye Blind concert this Friday! I'm excited, but dad already tried to put me on a guilt trip so. Kinda puts a damper on things. But I'm determined to have fun! I've realized recently that I usually experience summer in the last month of summer. Like, suddenly everyone is calling me/ having partied/ being available, etc. etc.

Other than that, nothing much new.

Except I accidentally found out who dies in Deathly Hallows.

_dammit.

ohm-nohm-nohm

That is the sound of me eating my foot.

Not really, by the way.
I'm just bored and probably semi-crazy right about now, since I haven't slept since two nights ago. Tried taking a nap today, but that didn't really work. I guess I'll just have to take a tylenolPM, like always. At least my room is a little cleaner? Or at least more organized.

Ummm... Sieanna's supposed to come over tomorrow. I'm geeked. And that looks really weird when you type it out... geeked.

Anywho.

LATER...
OHMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMGSH!!!
I read chapter 363 of the manga...
I hate Sasuke. It's official.

Just Dawned on Me

Ya know, up at school, a few girls always get really homesick. Like, "I miss my MUMMY!" And I would always just laugh at them behind their back, thinking to myself, "Why would anyone miss home?" Because all my time at school, I never felt homesick. I never wanted to go home any more than I wanted to stick my hand into a beehive. And yet the whole summer, I've been MVA-sick. Dorm-sick? Either way, missing MVA. So now I actually stop to think about it...
And it makes life so much easier to realize that I really don't like living with my family. I'm sure that if I suddenly moved in with Amy or something, I'd be homesick if I went to school. But who looks forward to slaving over messes that they didn't make, arguing with their parents at high decibels, doing chores that no one else will do, et cetera, when you could be hanging out with your friends (even just to do homework)?

So, anywho.

We might go to Pennsic, even if for THREE DAYS.

It's better than nothing, I suppose.

I have three days of glorious escap to look forward to~ ♥

I'm so sad...

Both pathetic, and melancholy.

Soo... I must say. So, I'll warn you first- SPOILER ALERT FOR NARUTO. AND THAT MEANS YOU, DJ._{Deidara exploded himself ;_;} (/END SPOILER)

So, I wanna go cry in a corner now. They were the only bad guys that I basically loved. KISHIMOTO OWNS MY HEART.

So, anyways.

Just got back from the cousins. It was great at first, but then Hell.

Now I'm a little sick to my stomache.

Oh, right. I'm supposed to do something with Chella, Ashley, and Jade. I dunno, I guess summer is finally starting to kick in, eh? And Reggie emailed me today. Apparently, he & Nina are up working at MVA.

I can't wait until school starts again, I miss them soooo...

La, lalala la

Ya know, whenever it's sunny out I don't feel like tanning, so I say to myself, "Tomorrow I will tan." Then tomorrow rolls around, and it is never sunny enough.
Today it rained a bit. It's still really overcast, so...


More stressing out about money, this morning. Allison offered to pay for school uniform, and I agree wholeheartedly. Mom, of course, doesn't want Allison to "spend all of her hard earned $300 on school closet." But come on- she offered. It's not like we're twisting her arm or anything.

Cassie and Rachel are coming up this Sunday. Yay for cousins.


Other than that, nothing much is really new.

Ennui

That's the word, right?

Probably not quite my problem, but I am bored.

Tanning just makes me sweaty. It takes like, a week for me to get even a little bit darker. Curse these melatonin or whatever...

Danke schoen, darling, danke schoen

Let me just say that music makes me happy when everything else is getting me down.
Oh, and Friends make me happy too.

Spent the night at Amy's last night. We watched Hannibal Rising. It was funny because the movie trailer for 1408 made me scream, but I was almost not really perfectly fine for Hannibal.


By the way,
I would like to thank DJ uber-much for helping me out with the whole Nick thing. When you're having guy problems, see help from another guy~<3 And the other way around, except I hope I won't be having any girl problems any time soon.
Which reminds me-
How on earth am I a gay man in a woman's body?
Clemons told me earlier in the school-year that that's how I am, and I had completely forgotten about it until just recently.
And the hilarious scary thing is...
It makes a lot more sense XD

ANYWHO.

So, the parents are toning it down a bit on the whole thing.

I still haven't regained my respect for them, but oh well.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!

So, counting really does work! Just not to ten. I have to count for about a minute.

Anywho- Life is pretty good other than the fact that I have, once again, like an idiot, agreed to go somewhere with Nick.
Why do I do these things?
We're going to the North Market, so it's not that big.
Maybe I'll be able to work up enough courage to say, "NO!" over some hi-chew... ?

Anywho. Talked to Jade today, and I'm still messaging DJ over devart. Amy is hopefully going to the fireworks with us tonight, since I haven't seen her in ages...

Yeah, nothing else really new.

OH!
Except yesterday in summer school, a bunch of guys were like, "Are you lightskinned?" and I almost bust out laughing. Some other guys in my class thought I was Indian.
Yay, Italia!

And there was this lady on the news who got her face blown off by fireworks. They were pro. grade & somehow some workers at a carwash got a hold of them. The fireworks took a bit long to go off, so this lady sticks her face right over them to see what was going on. And then they blew up.
I nearly fell off the couch laughing.